WARNING: extreme lengthy, boring, long-winded, over-detailed, stupid post ahead. So don't read it.

; and yes, it took me 3 days to be able to start typing this without breaking down, but I still did anyway.

29 January 2010 was just like any other normal Friday. The great felling to finally come to an end of another exhausting week was overpowering. I started that day looking forward to a slack day at school, a great choir prac and an awesome relax and do nothing late night. Which, I was barely right about.

Yes, it was a really slack school day. With only 'discussion' (we really did nothing but play tangle wangle) for LSC mind games as PCCG, a not tiring PE, another boring LA, a secretly chionging away LA journal culture lesson and a typical Geog, there really wasn't anything much.

Till choir prac. Started with a good 3 rounds PT and then warm-ups (vocal ones!) by Sher-Yin and Youming. Before that, Joyce told Sarah and I that a lot of u were shuffled out of A2s. yes, 'a lot of us' how mysterious is that. And I was like, half 'oh nooo.' And half 'aiyah. I think I should be staying in A2s. and hope so.'

Anyway, so we had warm-up, which lasted forever, not that I'm complaining, because the music comm was still sorting out the reshuffling. So long that we did stuff we didn't often do like'1,121…', 'kookaburra', which I don't remember doing for warm-ups before and something miskinis taught us, which we never did for warm-ups before. And now that I look back at that very last warm-up, it was fun, but I didn't think about making the best out of it, so it was quite disappointing on my part that we didn't get quite a few notes right.

Then, the music comm suddenly popped in and said that they were ready. Then, Jia Hui tols us the list of people in each section, starting from A2s sec 3s. Yun See was out and Liang Xuan was in A2s. Then, "A2 Sec 2s. Cai Wen, Svena, Belle, Ying Shan, Stacy, Wan Xin." And I was like, SHYTE. WHERE IS MY NAME.

Like suddenly, my heart dropped and disappeared. Then it was A1 sec3s, during which I hadn't recovered and couldn't hear anything. All I know is that Yun See went to A1. Then the A1 sec2s, which I could only hear MY NAME. And I was like, oh my… are you serious?! I think there's something wrong. There HAS TO be something wrong. OMG.

And so it took me awhile to realize that there wasn't anything wrong, which by then the 'section bonding' was over, which we each just said our name and the rest repeated it. Then, we went to sectional rooms and learnt a song, and it felt so out of place to be in a different sectional room with totally different people, apart from Yun See. And I really couldn't concentrate during that sectional.

I started to think about having to leave A2s. Having to leave Yvonne, Sher-Yin, Joyce, Cheryl, Xin Ning, Vera, Stacy, Sarah, Svena and Jia Rui. And I couldn't help but start thinking about all those memories, happy or sad. And I couldn't believe that I had to leave all those and the people themselves. I couldn't believe that I could no longer call myself an A2.

(This is the embarrassingly stupid part) It was like something was torn within me and I felt like crying out loud. Do you know how hard it was at that moment to stop thinking about it when all that could distract me was the score in front of me, but the A1 asl was just repeating a particular part over and over again, at a funeral march pace? It was like, the perfect song for mourning? Mourning over leaving A2s. Just great. Do you know how many million times I called myself pig just to stop myself from crying?

Then, we went back to M3 to have combined sectionals, before which they arranged us to suit the ridiculously 7-part song, which I moved down to join A2s! Anyway, then I happened to be standing beside Sher-Yin and she said hi to me and I was trying to smile, despite it all, and say hi. But it turned out that I was giving her some kind of weird look, and she was like, why you give me that look?! Which was like, OOPS. Anyway, it suddenly felt so good to have Yvonne standing in front again and be able to stand with (let's forget that it was more like next to) A2s again. Until I moved to join the rest of A1 second part, that is.

Then it suddenly occurred to me that if I was going to be in A1s, I have to face the fact someday, so I kind of forced myself to stop thinking about A2s just for the moment and think about the song and the song only. And then you know what. After combined sectionals, we found out that Wan Xin had gone to the toilet for one hour and wasn't back. And all of a sudden, I realized that (Ying Shan and) I wasn't the only ones facing that situation. But anyway, I was distracted from heart-breaking thoughts of A2s while talking to Ying Shan while Jia Hui tried to call Wan Xin.

Then Jia Hui called Miss Lim, which was highly distractingly funny, because Jia Hui made all of us keep quiet before calling and she was talking to Miss Lim in this unusually sweet tone and we started laughing seconds before Jia Hui put down the phone, which made things even funnier J And then she told us that Miss Lim wants us to attend something (oops, I forgot><) which we will be singing dancing song and silver swan, in our old parts!

Then I was so happy for the moment again and it was either the choir was softer, you can hear yourself more clearly at the back or when there are fewer people around, I was damn happy to be singing an A2 part, I was appreciating singing low notes and trying to blast or my ears were just plain weird, I could hear myself quite clearly for once! Except the notes that I really can't blast, which are from around e to b, which being in A1 totally doesn't help at all. And I think that it was just my ears, anyway.

After combining the 2 songs, we were done and the had been MIA Wan Xin was found by Leting and Amanda. That's when the emo-ing all started. Someone (oops, I forgot whether it was sher-yin or jia hui) told us that the reshuffling was for the better of choir and some other stuff that I have been reading so much for the past few days. Then some seniors were trying to talk to Wan Xin and comfort her and Eunice was crying too and jia hui and a few others were comforting her.

And Ying Shan and I were just sitting there, thinking about who we should approach to tell that we wanted to change sections, and we wanted to talk to Jia Hui because she seemed the most approachable, but she had to conduct the rest of the sec2s who were doing my shadow. When the sec 2s finished, Sze Qi, who was from Sop2 and is now in A1 too, cried too and Jia Hui comforted her too and I wanted to comfort her too, but saw Jia Rui first with tears in her eyes and somehow ended up hugging her and I started crying too. Which is real stupid.

Then Cheryl hugged me too, telling me to jiayou and not to let (A2s?) down. After that, Ying Shan and I half wanted to leave already and half still wanted to tell Jia Hui. Then Jia Hui saw me and those red eyes and asked me what section, then was like, A1s you wen ti, everyone who has to go A1 all cry.

Then who knows what happened, Yvonne was there hugging me and then next moment I was squished by Sher-Yin at the same time. She told me that it wasn't confirmed or permanent yet and I shouldn't think so much about it. Then Jia Hui was telling me about how in sec1, she wanted to go to A1but ended up in S1 and when Miss Lim asked her to sing high notes, she couldn't and started crying but still, today, she is still in S1.

Then Ying Shan started crying too, then Jia Hui asked her what section, she said A2s and she couldn't reach the low notes. Then Jia Hui was like, oh, this is a neutral switch! Which I totally agree, but then letting was like, aye, cannot like that la.

After that, we left school and when Stacy finally realized that I called her a million times and she returned call, I told her the new reshuffled arrangements and she was actually unhappy to remain in A2s. which was like, what?!! at first, but then can't blame her, she's inspiring to be SC and being in A2s won't help her much and besides, she wants to learn sop part to get the melody so she has more choices of songs when she has to do HMP second instrument assessment.

Anyway, I finally realize how much A2s mean to me and how much I should have appreciated it while I still could. Although I have been on the verge of crying all over again when I think about it for the past three days, I should tell myself that crying really doesn't help at all. I should just try my best to get back into A2s while this is all still not permanent.

And if I really can't change it, I'll just have to take it in my stride and carry on. (Like what Sher-Yin said)But I'll never forget all those memories. To Stacy, who has always been there with me to crap about others and no matter how many choir pracs you missed, I'll always love you.

To Sarah, I'm sorry for all the rubbish I say about you, but you'll always be somebody in my heart. Always.

To Svena, who's always the gunghor(sp?) one who will never fail to make me laugh out loud.

To Jia Rui ,who has been an awesome and sweet batch plus section mate.

To Cheryl ,the awesome ASL whom I always loved, despite how many wrong notes you may have played during sectionals

To Xin Ning, who's ever so cute and funny!

To Vera, who's nice and funny

To Yun See, who's going to A1s with mee!

To Joyce, though I don't talk much to you, I know that you are a really nice senior!

To Sher-Yin, who is ever so funny and helpful especially when there was only Cheryl and I in lower part.

To Yvonne, my beloved SL who cares so much for me. I know that behind all those scoldings and horrible sectionals, you have a really kind and caring heart.

I'll pray hard that I will somehow be able to go back to A2s. A wish made upon a Jinny Joe ♥